For Want Of Truth

For want of the truth, we dream our own small little dreams. For want of the truth, we construct our systems and reasoning and logic. For want of truth, we disbelieve the workings of our faith and turn to the failures of the world. For want of truth we make all our small little plans, set our tiny little goals, and scurry ant-like toward them.

And then in the absence of truth, we collapse in despair when our dreams and hopes are smashed in a second.

All my life I've searched for the truth, to free myself from these false defeats. I don't think we can know all truth. We can know some of it. Then we start building our too-small plans again. I want to set my heart on those dreams that are higher. I want to take the stuff of dreams and learn to use it as a building material. I want to have faith to believe and not think about what tomorrow will bring.

If, for want of truth, we hurt and despair and break ourselves... Think for a moment what would happen if we learned to live in truth.

Truth is not about me being perfect. It's not about me knowing what to say. It's not about me. It's not about having to care for other people - not when that's a burden. It's not about expecting yourself to change a place. It shouldn't be unnatural. Truth is something natural and God has planted deep in our hearts. We need to learn to listen - to live truthfully as ourselves, and freely as ourselves. Truth is about freedom. Freedom is about joy. Joy produces love - it cannot help but do that. Love will change the face of this world.

Numbing the Pain

Never give people labels. Criticism can be healthy, but labels run deep. You are, I am.... What are we? We are defined by God. We live under a limitless sky, and we live with a God whose promises are the stuff of dreams. Live a life worthy of dreams, and give permission to those around you to do the same. Just do not label. I user a computer; I am not a nerd. You are not just an average person. We are not failures. Even if we feel like it sometimes. Even then, I refuse to label myself. Labels destroy worlds.

So what do we do when we're lost in a sea of pain and there's no land on the horizon? Chocolate is good, but it is destructive. Friends are fun, but they are only temporary anaesthetic. My computer, it will end in self destruction too. I could lie in bed and wait for the feelings to pass. Wait forever. These things numb the pain for a short time, but I've come to the conclusion that they will destroy me. So how do we deal with pain?

Run; jump, pray. Anything that will get the endorphins pumping. Cry out to God? For others. Destroy the works of the enemy, and feel good about it. Lie out under the stars until the sun comes out again. Do not surrender to the pain, or the enemy wins.

Run. Jump. Pray. Emerge from the pain a better person. Never give in. We are meant for more.