Smaller

I see the corridoor narrowing before me - squeezing in and distorting things. I run forward, trying to get through.... and get stuck. Make me smaller! Make me fit!

I once had this strange idea that great people were big people - that great men and women of God were competent and assured people. Now I find that if I cannot be small enough, I cannot advanced. I don't need to be tougher, I don't need to be stronger, I don't need to be smarter, and I don't need to try harder. I just need to be more reliant.

I need less of me. There doesn't need to be more of anything else - there's plenty enough of God all over the place. The problem is, He can only work when there's less of me. Less fear, less competence, less anxiety, less overpreparation, less overanalysis.

People seem to have the mistaken view that small is fearful. This is wrong. Fears are big. Small is accepting everything in your stride, and responding when a response is due. Small is daring to do the great things without waiting to be a great person.

Now I will become smaller. And I will move my dreams up a notch. Not because I want the glory, but because I want the faith.