Limelight and mist

Ok, it's easy to say a close friend is influenced by your own thoughts when he talks to you about God's purpose... but when a total stranger walks up and gives you exactly what you *want* to hear... things get a bit psychedelic. God has been moving, and moving powerfully. My heart has been healed, and my worth has been restored; I am a leader and I have to walk like one. I just needed to remember why and for who I lead.

I went to a youth leaders' conference tonight because I knew somehow that God would reach me there. I love it how God never fails to deliver! I was told that I needed to accept the responsibility, and God was going to turn me into a leader above men, and that I would have to let go of what was stopping me and step into the limelight for this. Well, I won't say I find that an easy commission, but I find it an expected one. Given this, there is really no way to doubt God's will in my life.

To become a leader, however, requires strength. Lately I've really been struggling with dryness in my Christian walk, and it's led to a sense of aimlessness. AThe problem is I was seeking God a lot, in little pieces. The presence of God is like a fine mist - you can run throguh it and feel refreshed for a moment, but if you soak yourself in it you become drenched. This is the second, and more important, part of what I've been told.

My head is still spinning from worship, but I wanted to get these words somewhere concrete before doubt could erode my memory.