big isn't me

And once again, God has reminded me that I am not the center of the universe. Why do big things have to be about me? Why can't big things be about others? They can, and they will. I do feel honoured, God has once again given me a beautiful insight into the life that goes on around me. Knowing and sharing struggles and shortcomings with others is something special, I don't know why.

With knowledge, however, comes responsibility. Not telling is humanly achievable, but praying consistently for others is harder. Maybe it's our own nature, maybe it's the devil plotting against God's work. Whatever it is, I have to break it. Prayer is one of the most powerful weapons we have, and one of the best ways of helping people through hard times.

maybe other things are happening too. I'd like to think they were... but I fool myself and cause so much pain so frequently with my guessing that I really should stop. God will move the earth in His time, but I really need to touch base again. I've been reminded of another promise I asked, that is happening around me. Now I have to serve in my own way, and be faithful.

Some days I want to cry because I feel so alone in this world. Today I want to cry because of the beauty of God's work unfolding in the lives of my friends. Go figure.