...or not

Remember that question I asked a little while ago? The answer is a resounding no. I am meant to be single, however depressing that seems at the moment. When I'm less tired it'll be ok... but right now I just feel like putting my fist through a wall. I just finished dinner, and I feel so bad I'm probably going to throw up a bit later. I hate being depressed. And to all those out there who have any sort of a relationship going at the moment, I envy you with the envy of a thousand thirsty camels watching another camel drink water. I mean it too.

So now I'm here all alone. I hate talking about relationships... it gets me so down. If it's not mentioned, I'm usually pretty good. I guess I'm just not good at connecting with people, or maybe the kind of people I can connect with just aren't around. I don't like thinking about that second possibility, I hate the thought of being really alone. It's funny that I don't like being alone, cos I'm a bit of a loner and tend to spend a lot of time alone. Weird eh?

Also, I got a letter today saying that I got on the dean's merit list for my uni... whatever that means. I'm meant to turn up to some party type thing sometime soon as part of a "congratulations" or something. I might turn up... or I might not. The great thing about being a loner is that nothing is expected either way. Who knows, maybe I'll meet some new friends there. One can always hope. A point of interest that struck me on the letter is that if I can keep my grades high enough, I'll be awarded class 1 honours. It sounds kinda cool and I'd like to get that. If I can bring myself to work any more on these terrible assignments that is.

Anyway, must go! I have to sleep because tomorrow is a big day of... (wait for it) MORE ASSIGNMENTS!!! YAY!!!! Oh the sarcasm.... what an empty life I lead. Maybe I'll just give up and ring tash and see if she wants to do something. Even if she doesn't, just the excitement of ringing another person will be enough to last me the day :\