blogging in dvorak... not!

so I'm learning dvorak. It's harder than I thought. Maybe I'm too entrenched in my qwerty ways. No, it's getting easier. It still sucks. Please read this slowly cos it took a long time to write. if I calm myself and think slowly and clearly then it's not too bad. I'm starting to think that learning dvorak in the middle of assignment season is bad. It's tempting just to switch back but I know that If I go back then this will all have been for nothing. Incidentally I'm finding it easier to type with my eyes closed. I think it's finally starting to settle in. that doesn't really mean much though. Music is pretty annoying too but I suspect it helps in the concentration dept too. While this is all very nerdy, I'm hoping that in a week or so it'll be useful.

Enough of that. On with things! Ever opened up your Bible for the night and think "oh crap"? I'm not a big believer in reading too hard into what I just randomly open up to, but this just jumped out of the page. GAHH!!! That's it!!! No more dvorak till tomorrow. I've had about enough pain and I'm fed up with it. Time to get in the zone and finish assignments! Oh sorry, spose I should get back to my point.

Yeah, that page... it jumped out at me big. I guess I've been ignoring it a bit, but the main reason God called me to help with the youth group is to tell these kids the good news. I got a little bit of a wake-up call about that last night. I shut the bible after reading the first 4 words of course, and had a lie-down. The truth is that even though I'm not an especially bad leader, I don't particularly like being given responsibility and I'm shy so I find it hard to confront people about things. I guess this really has to change. Dramatically. The next six months could be painful. And/or fun. But definitely scary. I wonder what else will happen.

Anyway, the assignment is coming along nicely and might be finished sometime next week... did I mention it was due friday?

I'm still not decided about yesterday's dichotomy, and I think the next few weeks could be fairly hard. Hopefully God will help me out, He seems to have given helpful hints so far and things tend to just happen when He's involved. Just gotta keep my focus on God and His glory, which is kinda hard when I have my own interests too... at least they coincide, but I have to make sure I do things for the right reasons.

I had a really weird dream (weird even for me) last night and I'm frustrated cos I can't remember it. On that note I'll leave everyone in peace and go look for some food... it's getting late and I do indeed have a huge day tomorrow.